s.e.m.u.a. t.e.n.t.a.n.g. k.i.t.a

2011-11-03T16:01:00.000+08:00

i've actually lost interest in this blogging thing; hence the last entry was dated 3 october..tu pun it was just AZ's song lyrics. FB pun dah membosankan, that leaves Twitter.

P E R N A H K A H

2011-10-03T10:37:00.001+08:00

pernahkah engkau berfikir

apa yang ku lakukan

itu cinta

pernahkah engkau sadari

setiap ku bicara

itu cinta

pernahkah engkau mengerti

yang ku inginkan

berdua denganmu

walaupun hanya sedetik

memandang wajahmu

itu cukup bagiku

h a n y a k a u y a n g k u m a u

k u t a k k a n h i d u p t a n p a d i r i m u

h i d u p t i a d a a r t i n y a

b i l a a k u t a k b i s a

m e m i l i k i d i r i m u

dan bila kau rasakan

seperti yang kurasakan

sambutlah tangan ini

dan berikan cinta

dan bila kau tak mengerti

dengarkan lagu ini

ku berkata sejujurnya

dan ku...cinta kau.

i simply love this song and i am dedicating this song to the singer - bang Nuar kuuuu

boleh ka?

2011-09-30T11:06:00.000+08:00

t.o.d.a.y. f.e.e.l.s. s.a.d.

2011-08-02T17:58:00.004+08:00

Ya Allah, jika benar ini dugaanMu, aku redha. Andai dugaan dan balasan yang Kau beri kini adalah ke atas kekhilafan ku di masa lalu, aku redha Ya Allah. Kau lebih mengetahui akan apa yang terbaik buat diriku dan keluarga. Jika benar kejauhan dan perpisahan ini boleh mendatangkan kebaikan dan kebahagiaan di masa hadapan, aku terima. Jika perpisahan ini lebih mendatangkan keburukan, aku dengan rendah dirinya memohon padaMu ya Allah, berilah petunjuk dan hidayahMu. Bantuilah hambaMu yang lemah ini. Sesungguhnya hanya padaMu aku berserah.

2011-07-21T15:25:00.000+08:00

tengok Fenomena 29 jun 1990

rm4.50 je kot

...ooops it was a Friday

wasn't i suppose to be at the tuition centre then?

2011-07-19T10:49:00.000+08:00

i was going through my box to do some spring cleaning

terjumpa pulak benda alah nie

tahun 90 tuu from Superman plak tuuu

hehehe.. berani letak kat sini coz i know

dia tak pernah jengah ke sini.

alah..kalau jengah pun...takde maknanya pun

setakat kenangan lama di angin lalu

he's happily married ngan wife cantik dia :)

hmm....apa lagi agaknya ada dalam kotak nie ek?

2011-07-07T22:55:00.002+08:00

awak buat saya selalu teringatkan awak.

2011-07-05T11:10:00.001+08:00

biarkanlah saja diriku sendirian tanpamu

biarkanlah saja diriku sepi tanpa kata..

mungkinkah segala derita di jiwa

akan terubat jua akhirnya.

Faizal tahir - hanyut (acoustic)

2011-07-03T21:12:00.001+08:00

credit: muszrain@youtube

2011-06-24T01:07:00.000+08:00

u choose to ignore all of my feelings
and do as you please
like i am some dumb-ass shit
i'm feeling miserable
all thanks to you.

2011-06-21T09:20:00.000+08:00

sunset di Batu Ferringhi

flowerpot ~ alex chu

2011-05-04T11:17:00.000+08:00

you come to me from some place far away
my heart trembles, how can i express my feelings?
you stole my heart from the start
and give me an incurable sickness
i want to become a flowerpot, i pray always
i'll become a flowerpot that sits on your small windowsills
though i can't speak or want anything at all
i'll be able to see you smile and feel your touch once a while
and i'll be the one gazing at our face as you sleep
you leave me for some place far away
how can i stop my tears from falling?
you had my heart from the start
and made me suffer an incurable sickness
i want to become a flowerpot. i pray always
i'll become a flowerpot that sits on your small windowsills
though i can't speak or want anything at all
i'll be able to see you smile and feel your touch once a while
and i'll be the one gazing at your face as you sleep

i say this, u say that

2011-04-25T00:29:00.000+08:00

i say this, you say that

i said no, you said yes

i did the things i do cause i love you

you did the things that pleases you

cause you love me too.

wanna try

2011-04-20T20:12:00.001+08:00

berulang kali soalan tu ditanya. seingatnya perkataan itu sering dipakai ketika zaman cinta monyet. would you like to go steady, kita couple nak, nak jadi girlfriend saya? tulah ayat-ayat lazim yang sering digunakan. biler dah berusia nie, ditanya soalan macam tu rasa janggal pun ada. tak tau nak jawab apa. habis-habis dijawab dengan 'hahaha'. bersetujukah saya dengan cadangan itu? malu tapi mahu? woot! sapa dalam dunia ni yang tak mahu menyayang dan disayangi. tapi biler ditanya sedemikian, terkedu dibuatnya. tidak bolehkah satu-satu perhubungan itu dimulakan dari berkawan dan seterusnya menyerahkan kepadaNya untuk menentukan perjalanan perhubungan itu. i still think of him every single day, tu tak boleh dinafikan. To just go out there and say that, yes I'll give it a try doesn't seem fair to the other party. I personally feel we should just start out slow and see where our feelings take us. maybe by then i can still love him and place him in a memory box somewhere deep within me and go on with my new life with you. betul tak? dan mungkin jua ketika itu, saya sudah boleh mula belajar berkongsi, jika itu takdirNya.

mimpi yang bermain

2011-04-19T05:05:00.001+08:00

mimpi yang bermain dengan jiwa dan perasaan. hmmm...mimpi semalam adalah sesi ramah mesra yang dah lama ditinggalkan. kami berborak, bergelak tawa, bertepuk tampar, indah. senyumannya masih semanis dulu. pandangan matanya masih mampu membuat jantungku berdegup laju. aku rindu, rindu teramat.

dan aku sering ditanya kenapa aku tidak pernah mahu membuka hati aku untuk menerima cinta yang lain?

Honey Bi

2011-04-11T11:02:00.003+08:00

ME time that i had last weekend was spent at the Sepang where Rain performed.

went with another Rain fanatic, me dearest sister Kak Mah and Callie

tempat we all berdiri agak berdekatan jugaklah dengan stage. niat di hati macam nak berdiri depan pagar betul-betul depan stage, tapi apakan daya....ada ajumma-ajumma lain yang lebih pantas dari kita orang. hahaha serious ajumma ok. the ground where we stood was full with batu-batu yang bersegi-segi. bayangkan berdiri menunggu honey Bi tersayang mula perform at 9. harus longlai gitu.

opening act ada this Ford supermodel contest. the audiences dah kind of restless menunggu sekian lama, kena pulak layan tengok model buat catwalk. hmm apa signifikasinya membuat show sedemikian sebagai show pembukaan? ontahlah, tak dapek makcik nak nolong jawabnye. pastu kluar plak si Joe Flizzow and Altimet, lagilah kebosanan yang melampau. yelah to me yang tak layan lagu-lagu depa memanglah bosan..tak taulah plak kot ajumma-ajumma kat depan tu ikut terloncat skali ngan Joe, tu lainlah.

the minute honey Bi muncul....waaaahhh!!!! gegak gempita dibuatnya.

note: for clearer view of him, click on the pic.

hahahaha...i'm gonna use up all my pics storage allocation kalau letak semua. these are just a few of the hundred that i took. aaahhh...the songs, the dance movement, the sweat, his pinkish skin colour everything was in order even the way the clothes fit him all in the right places woot!!!
sangat-sangat berpuas hati. the crowd closest to us was cool. same fanatic yang tak kisah to dance and shout segala, walaupun dah boleh masuk kategori ajumma jua tapi taklah sehebat ajumma kat depan pagar tu hehe.

2011-04-07T16:27:00.003+08:00

siapa sangka "micho" (misai macho) :) boleh tulis surat sebegini.

2011-04-05T11:47:00.000+08:00

i want to love someone whose heart has been broken, so that he knows exactly how it feels and won't break mine.

2011-03-24T21:05:00.000+08:00

i am tired.

tired of talking, tired of crying...

tired of everything.

it's just not fair for you to leave me to handle these kids and life.

tired of trying to make people listen to me.

tired of having to explain myself.

tired of thinking and trying to keep it altogether.

i am just TIRED.

sakit

2011-03-21T20:41:00.002+08:00

kalau disebut, orang akan merasa menyampah. seperti kisah yang tiada kesudahannya. sakit yang ditanggung tidak kelihatan pada zahirnya. secara luarannya, aku boleh menjadi seorang yang peramah, mengusik teman-teman berdekatan, bertepuk-tampar dan bergelak-tawa seakan melupakan segala duka lara. ada ketikanya aku jua boleh menjadi orang yang pendiam dan memencilkan diri dari semua. kala aku berdiam adalah yang paling menyakitkan. diam memikirkan masa lampau yang masih erat aku genggam. diam mengenangkan balasanNya. aku diam, aku fikir, aku marah dan aku membenci diri aku sendiri. segala kekusutan dan kekalutan yang berlaku adalah atas kekhilafan aku yang jahil. atas kejahilan itu maka kini aku diduga. dugaan yang Dia rasakan aku mampu menempuhinya. Ya Allah, aku bermohon padaMu, berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk meneruskan hidup ini, teguhkanlah imanku untuk menempuhi segala dugaan dan cabaran dalam membesarkan anak-anak yang telah diamanahkan padaku. Kiranya aku tersasar, berikanlah aku petunjuk dan bawalah aku kembali ke jalanMu ya Allah.

engagement & a birthday

2011-03-21T12:05:00.000+08:00

last Saturday, niece got engaged and Mak turned 75.

*pic taken by one the kanak-kanak riang

they share the same birth dates and turned 75 last saturday.

at the end of the engagement ceremony, eldest brother held a mini celebration

for both his mom and MIL.

birthday boy

2011-03-21T11:40:00.000+08:00

long overdue post...

the 1st cicit of the Omarians, lil Aqil turned 1.

had a little get-together at USJ17

pot luck and pool

Love Hurts

2011-02-12T20:54:00.000+08:00

you can never love a person too much cause when you do, you might end up getting hurt. and you promise yourself you would never put yourself in the same position ever again. then things start to show some good progress and you're happy and start to think it was just a stupid phase that you had to go through in order to make it. just when you felt that everything was going as planned, BOOM!! you get smacked in the face and hurt all over again. you distance yourself while at the same hoping that the silent treatment will knock some senses into him. you try to hold yourself for the longest possible before giving in. but that usually only lasts for a couple of days cause you love him too much to ignore him. you forgive but not forgotten. and the cycle continues. over a certain period time, the forgotten gets piled up and gets too much for you to handle. so what do you do?

2011-02-09T11:11:00.000+08:00

we've all been hurt by love, it's out of our hands

for all it's worth, i'm drawing a line that's in the sand

another morning just won't do

i need your love to shine on through or it won't be new

whatever it takes, my love, i'll find it

whatever it takes my love

to put the lonely days behind us, i'm laying it down

whatever it takes, my love

IF THERE'S A CHANCE FOR TWO HEARTS TO CELEBRATE

TO BLOW OUT SOME CANDLES AND TEMPT THE HANDS OF FATE

YOU MAKE A WISH, I'LL MAKE ONE TOO

CLOSE YOUR EYES, LOVE, WHEN YOU DO, OR IT WON'T COME TRUE

whatever it takes, my love, i'll find it

whatever it takes my love

to put the lonely days behind us, i'm laying it down

whatever it takes, my love

cause i've been wandering round with the same old blues

that have been dragging me down

IF YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY TOO, MAYBE IT JUST TAKES TWO.

~michael buble: whatever it takes~

2011-01-19T10:59:00.000+08:00

anyone can make you smile or cry,

but it takes someone special

to make you smile when you

already have tears in your eyes.

2011-01-18T10:06:00.000+08:00

2011-01-13T11:30:00.000+08:00

send someone to love me

i need to rest in arms

keep me safe from harm

in pouring rain

give me endless summer

.... i feel the cold

feel i'm getting old

before my time.

2011-01-06T11:53:00.001+08:00

though i don't say often.... i love the brats and can't imagine life without them.

it hurts when i hurt them or when others do the same.

i'm not a perfect mom and can be a monster at times..

i do hope they would forgive me..someday.

2011-01-05T14:19:00.000+08:00

pinjam dari Aisyah's

bila tengok gambar ni, rasa rindu teramat pada arwah Pak and Mak's oldself

al-fatihah.

2010-12-15T21:49:00.000+08:00

i 'm not a perfect person

there's many thing i wish i didn't do

but i continue learning

i never meant to do those things to you

and so i have to say before i go

that i just want you to know

i've found a reason for me

to change who i used to be

a reason to start over new

and the reason is you

wuish! dalam sibuk hari nie

(ye hari ini saya mempunyai tugasan untuk dilakukan walaupun masih tidak ber'bos),

masih boleh ber'emo lagi.

biler teringat pada arwah pak, sedih.
terbayang arwah Mie, sedih lagi.
tu biler teringatkan yang dah takde.

terkenang pulak pada abang-abang yang nun jauh di Gombak dan Kedah, hati jadi sayu

rindukan anak bujang yang sepi tanpa berita lagilah meruntunkan jiwa.

dek rindukan lelaki-lelaki yang pernah dan masih wujud dalam diari hidup, meleleh sorang-sorang

nak mandi, leleh. duk kat meja pun leleh...pendek kata boleh jadi minah leleh lah hari nie.

nak PMS ke? baru je selesai.

2010-12-14T11:47:00.000+08:00

waktu terasa semakin berlalu

tinggalkan cerita tentang kita

akan tiada lagi kini tawamu

tuk hapuskan semua sepi di hati

ada cerita tentang aku dan dia

dan kita bersama saat dulu kala

ada cerita tentang masa yang indah

saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa

teringat di saat kita tertawa bersama

ceritakan semua tentang kita

ada cerita tentang aku dan dia

dan kita bersama saat dulu kala

ada cerita tentang masa yang indah

saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa

wah! kangen banget pada suara lemak-macho dia. pada awal-awal kes sensasi dia, memang terasa disappointed yang teramat. disappointed hingga sanggup search untuk vids yang hebat diperkatakan. but then sehingga hari nie, i've not viewed the said videos walaupun ada je dalam my hdd. depa yang tahu i'm such a huge fan of him started to make fun. saying this and that. nak kata apa, senyum jelah. whatever he did, that is between dia and Him. manusia tak pernah lari dari melakukan kesilapan. pray that he finds his way back just like someone i know did. apa-apapun, i'm still a HUGE fan of his talent.

disember datang dan pergi. alhamdulillah, setahun berlalu, moga diberi kesempatan untuk bertahun-tahun lagi, amin.

bila penyakit M datang melanda, banyak benda yang dibuat tapi asyik ditangguhkan dengan secara tidak sengaja. seperti mana blog nie yang dah mula bersawang. setiap kali selepas jari-jari nie mengetuk papan kekunci membina ayat yang berbaris-baris, secara tak disengajakan akan tertekan butang Delete.

p.s have i been Deleted too o, chin-aehaneun hyeongje?

2010-12-04T11:19:00.000+08:00

minah nie mengelabah tak tentu hala

baru komen suh Lifehouse datang jenguk Malaysia since they are in Jakarta rite now..

tup-tup ada nie dalam inbox

2010-11-26T14:57:00.001+08:00

click on the link below to read more....[r][a][y] eusouff: Justice For All

[r][a][y] eusouff: Justice For All: "I received an email fwded from a blogger friend [ NukeRude ]. After reading the content, I felt that I am obligated to share it with others...."

2010-11-11T12:04:00.000+08:00

why is it when i see them...
i see US?
it has been years.
i HATE this!!!

2010-11-10T23:24:00.000+08:00

omo! i simply love this male version of Teenage Dream.

the guys are adorable especially Darren Criss.

just have to share it with u gals.

2010-11-09T16:51:00.000+08:00

dia kata mak kekasih hati memilih. mak kekasih hati tengok luaran je, tak boleh nak terima gaya hidup dan kerja dia. dia kata mak kekasih hati ada typical melayu mindset, tak open. dia kata diri dia baik. dia kata dia meminta secara baik kat mak kekasih hati dia.

dia marah biler mak kekasih hati menolak keinginan dia. dia berdendam dan berpikiran, "kalau aku rasakan diri aku baik tapi kau memandang aku sebagai jahat, maka eloklah aku berperangai jahat kalau itu membolehkan aku memperolehi anak kau". wuish! drama melayu ke apa nie?

dia bertanya, saya menjawab. dua dijawab, sepuluh dibalas. hmm, kalau hati dikuasai nafsu, begitulah jadinya. dia bertanya sebagai bujang, saya menjawab sebagai ibu.

semestinyalah seorang ibu hanya mahukan yang terBAEK buat anak-anak..

pesanan untuk si bujang, jikalau merasakan diri harus berdendam untuk menunjukkan kehebatan, maka sebenarnya diri masih belum layak dan bersedia untuk mengurus kehidupan orang lain.

*renung-renungkanlah dan selamat beramal

2010-11-07T19:55:00.000+08:00

yes i used to wear high heels and doll myself up even when i'm just heading out to the mamak stall. now to work, i am comfortable with my so-last-season baju kurung and over the weekends with tee and jeans. on occasional get-together with friends, mak pening kepala. do i dress up or down? kang mak dress up, kata terlebih sudah pulak, haha and me nye dressing up is....mak tak bawak handbag berjenama seantero dunio, mak pakai bag corduroy je kot. kasut mak beli flip flop kat bata je. dress down, nanti diumpat pulak tak up-to-date. hahaha. so mak nye dress up and dress down, sama je maknanya dalam kamus.

sengkek sangat ke wan amal, nak beli baju yang senonoh sket untuk jumpa member-member? haha. sengkek tu sengkek jugaklah tapi tak lah sampai tak mampu nak beli baju kot. so what's your story then? entah ler.

biler orang tanya, where do we go for food? i am actually ok with just fast food or kopitiam. mak tak kisah, nyah. tapi mak kisah biler kena bayar lebih rm50 untuk sorang makan je kot. adus! kolot nye mak nie. macam mana nak bercampur ngan orang macam nie. haha...maybe that explains naper mak duk dalam dunia mak je kot.

dalam usia tua macam nie ada lagi ke peer pressure? woot!!!

so kesimpulannye, sapa yang dapat me is one lucky person. maintenance tak tinggi pun. mari satu, mari semua. (:

note: what's with the mak and what not?

2010-11-07T00:59:00.000+08:00

i like vampires....no wait... i love them. it's no secret i'm on team Edward. i have read and watched the series over and over again. i have found my new love vampire, Damon Salvatore. watched the first season of the Vampire Diaries, got hooked on the Salvatore brothers. Am currently watching season two and i find myself more and more attracted to Damon, a bad ass vampire with a heart when it comes to Elena and Stefan.

can i be someone's or something's personal brand of heroin too?

2010-11-03T22:15:00.000+08:00

comel kot!!!

2010-11-03T21:56:00.000+08:00

adus! rasa macam nak pecah dada nie. tak di bagi nanti dikatakan tak faham, biler dah bagi, dipijak-pijaknye pulak kita nie. geram tersangat. cakap sekali tak faham, cakap dua kali tak faham jugak...la rupanya bercakap dalam bahasa Melayu, patutlah tak faham. tak kena bahasa gayanye.

i don't have much control over what comes out from my mouth kalau tengah marah nie. kalau pendam dalam hati, makan dalam, sedih wo. time nielah rasanya macam nak cari proxy. tak sanggup rasanye nak go through the teenage drama every other week.

well, what you give is what you get kan? woot!!!!

2010-10-14T17:01:00.001+08:00

i know something is not right somewhere but i don't know where to start. feeling very vulnerable and angry. i miss you. miss you so very much. i really need to pick a fight with someone, anyone up for it? be my punching bag and be the shoulder to cry on. i miss having you agreeing to all my ramblings. life has been tough but it has gotten tougher lately and i don't think i'm capable of handling it alone anymore - emotionally & mentally. i am exhausted to the max. maybe that explains why i have been spending my afternoon break sleeping.

even though it's been so long

my love for you keeps going strong

i remember the things that we used to do

a kiss in the rain 'til the sun shine through

i try to deny it but i'm still in love with you

i miss you like crazy, i miss you like crazy

ever since you went away, every hour of every day

i miss you like crazy, i miss you like crazy

no matter what i say or do

there's just no getting over you

i can the love shining in your eyes

and it comes as such a sweet surprise

if seeing's believing it's worth the wait

so hold me and tell me it's not too late

we're so good together, we're starting forever now

i miss you like crazy, i miss you like crazy

ever since you went away, every hour of every day

i miss you like crazy, i miss you baby

a love like ours will never end

just touch me and we're here again

just one night

and we'll have that magic feeling like we used to do

hold on tight

and whatever comes our way we're gonna make it through

if seeing's believing it's worth the wait

so hold me and tell me it's not too late

we're so good together, we're starting forever now

and i miss you like crazy, i miss you like crazy

no matter what i say or do

there's just no getting over you

and i miss you , baby, i miss you, baby

all the chance of love you gave me

when a feeling get's this strong

you know the real thing comes along

i can't remember the last time i had fun..pure fun with friends. talk, laugh, eat, laugh....~~smoke some ciggies~~ ~~maybe~~. hahaha. flirting over the cyberworld doesn't count ya, buddy and need i remind you that you're no longer available. i need some action and i need them fast. hmm...i wonder where's the little black book.

piper: how am i suppose to do this alone?

leo: you have your sisters

piper: it's not the same

2010-09-24T10:02:00.000+08:00

2010-08-16T12:45:00.000+08:00

sometimes that is all you need to hear.

Help! I am itching all over. Don't know

2010-08-15T19:48:00.002+08:00

Help! I am itching all over. Don't know cause of allergy.

DSC00663

2010-08-10T15:52:00.001+08:00

me prize for this year's Family Day

got myself a LCD tv last year

the year before a fridge

and the year before before a CD/VCD/FM radio

this year depa kata enough with the electrical items

time to get physical!!

alhamdulillah.

Utusan Malaysia Online - Kota

2010-08-05T09:43:00.001+08:00

Naperlah kita dulu pun tak piket macam nie???

548 tuntut gaji 2 bulan, majikan arah cuti

AMPANG 4 Ogos - Hanya beberapa hari sahaja lagi umat Islam akan menyambut bulan Ramadan.

Ini bermakna persiapan untuk Hari Raya Aidilfitri terutamanya dari aspek perbelanjaan menjadi keutamaan semua pihak.

Namun berita sedih buat 548 pekerja Paycomm Network Sdn. Bhd. (i once blogged bout dearest ex-boss)apabila mereka diminta oleh majikan untuk mengambil cuti selama enam bulan tanpa gaji.(sound familiar, friends?)

"Berita tersebut kami terima menerusi e-mel yang dikirimkan kepada kami.(hmm...we got our news face-to-face 2 hari sebelum the date kot)

"Ia jelas menunjukkan majikan meminta kami ambil cuti tanpa gaji yang sepatutnya berkuat kuasa pada bulan ini.

"Lebih memburukkan keadaan, majikan masih tidak menjelaskan gaji kami selama dua bulan iaitu untuk Jun dan Julai," (suddenly tak boleh ingat berapa bulan gaji tertunggak...mungkin sebab banyak kot!! tu tak termasuk lagi tunggakan EPF) kata ketua kesatuan pekerjanya, Sharin Abdullah.

Tambahnya, sehingga kini majikan gagal menjelaskan tunggakan gaji yang dianggarkan berjumlah RM3 juta (ours lebih lagi kot!!) tersebut.

"Pihak kami sendiri kurang pasti kenapa gaji kami tidak dibayar sehingga sekarang.

"Malah, tiada penjelasan secara rasmi diberikan kenapa kami perlu mengambil cuti tanpa gaji.

"Perkara ini cukup mengecewakan kami, apatah lagi bulan puasa dan kemudian Hari Raya akan tiba.

"Jika kami mengambil cuti tanpa gaji, bagaimana kami hendak memperoleh wang untuk perbelanjaan sempena Aidilfitri tahun ini," katanya ketika ditemui wartawan.

Difahamkan, berikutan keadaan tersebut, beberapa pekerja syarikat berkenaan cukup tertekan berikutan ketiadaan wang.

Salah seorang pekerja yang telah berkhidmat selama 30 tahun di syarikat berkenaan, Zalizha Mohamed, 49, menyatakan rasa sedihnya berikutan bakal kehilangan mata pencarian.

"Sedih memikirkan keadaan ini. Kami cuba bertahan selama dua bulan walaupun tidak mendapat gaji dengan harapan majikan dapat membayar gaji kami.

"Malangnya peluang yang kami berikan seperti tidak dihargai malah kami pula yang diarahkan ambil cuti tanpa gaji.

"Di mana kami hendak mendapat wang terutamanya ketika menjelangnya hari raya nanti?" katanya.

Tambah Zalizha lagi, mereka kecewa dengan sikap majikan yang dilihat tidak telus terhadap pekerja.

"Sepatutnya sekiranya berlaku masalah dalaman seperti tidak boleh membayar gaji pekerja, majikan perlu memberitahu kami lebih awal bagi membolehkan kami membuat persediaan.

"Ini tidak, keadaan ini berlaku secara tiba-tiba (yup!! a couple of days after the announcement yang myself beria-ia kata pada Dato' tu..."macam nie jatuh terduduk lah saya", true enough.. Mie pun passed away), dan kami cukup panik bila memikirkan bakal tidak mempunyai pekerjaan," katanya lagi.

Berikutan dengan itu, satu piket yang mengumpulkan hampir 300 pekerja Paycomm (naper kita tak buat nie dulu ek? sebab kita takde persatuan pekerja mungkin?) diadakan di hadapan bangunan syarikat berkenaan bagi mendesak majikan membayar gaji mereka.

Ketua Biro Pengaduan Awam MCA Selangor, Datuk Theng Book turut turun padang bagi membantu pekerja-pekerja malang tersebut untuk mendapatkan hak mereka.

"Saya mendapat aduan ini minggu lepas. Saya ingatkan majikan, bahawa mereka mempunyai masa seminggu untuk menyelesaikan masalah pekerja mereka terutamanya melibatkan tunggakan gaji.

"Jika tidak selesai, kami akan mengambil tindakan tegas termasuklah dari aspek undang-undang bagi memaksa majikan menunaikan tanggungjawabnya. (mungkin dah sampai masanye kot he gets what he deserves)

"Saya juga difahamkan pekerja cuba menghubungi majikan termasuklah mengatur beberapa perjumpaan untuk mendapatkan penjelasan serta menyelesaikan masalah, tetapi majikan tiada.

"Bukan sahaja telefon tidak berbalas, tetapi kelibat orang kuat (adakah KN termasuk dalam senarai ni?)syarikat berkenaan juga tidak kelihatan," katanya.

Utusan Malaysia turut ke pejabat Paycomm Network yang terletak di tingkat enam, Bangunan Menara Maxisegar, Pandan Indah, bagi mendapatkan ulasan daripada majikan mengenai hal tersebut.

Malangnya, setelah loceng ditekan tiada jawapan dan didapati pejabat berkenaan lengang seperti tiada pekerja.

2010-07-20T10:37:00.000+08:00

nak gelak pun ada...

i mimpikan celebs 2 malam berturut-turut..

the 1st nite, ada Hrithik Roshan & Shah Rukh Khan..

can't remember apa yang terjadi tapi yang nyatanya mata Hrithik lawa giler-giler and SRK was soo young..haha sib baik tak mimpikan si Rosyam Nor. coz whenever i tgk SRK, mesti teringatkan RN...seangkatan tapi masih boleh jadi hero..hehe.

the 2nd nite, there was Jacob and Edward. hahaha...'mak' duduk atas lap Jacob kot tapi after that bersendaloka ngan Edward. ntah macam mana tup2 muncul pulak jejaka terakhir melayu ngan kepala botaknya...it was...wait..wait..wait for it...Remy Ishak. hahaha seriously tolonglah kabarkan pada diriku...naperlah mamat-mamat nie semua enterframe mimpi-mimpiku.

apa sahajalah kisahnye dengan depa semua nie???

2010-07-15T16:32:00.000+08:00

buat sekian kalinya aku diajukan soalan, bila lagi nak cari pengganti? hmm mau aje menjawab, apa mencari pengganti itu semudah membeli ikan di pasar? bagai memilih baju di gedung membeli-belah? kalau semudah menyebut ABC sekalipun, akan aku fikirkan beratus-ratus kali sebelum membuat keputusan.

apa yang membuat aku teragak-agak untuk membuka pintu hati ini? dek kekhilafan masa lampau? aku tidak pernah mengaku diri aku sempurna dan aku juga tidak mengatakan dia jua sempurna. rumahtangga mana yang tidak pernah gelora. memang aku tidak pernah menceritakan di sini bagaimana kencangnya gelora yang datang melanda kerana aku hanya ingin mengingati saat-saat manis. aku kira dengan mengenang segala keindahan yang aku lalui akan memberi kekuatan untuk aku meneruskan kehidupan ini.

bohonglah kalau aku mengatakan aku tidak pernah terfikir untuk mempunyai seorang teman yang boleh berkongsi suka duka dan menjaga sakit pening aku. penipulah aku kiranya aku mengatakan aku tidak pernah kesunyian. aku manusia biasa.

aku cinta

aku rindu

aku resah dan

aku bingung.

aku berterima kasih pada yang sudi menghulur salam

aku bersyukur pada yang menyapa

sehingga tiba ketikanya aku boleh berkongsi perasaan dan waktu,

izinkan aku memuja dari jauh.

2010-07-15T10:52:00.000+08:00

last weekend there was another wedding in the family. selamat pengantin baru to Wan Zailin & Khairul.

wonder when mine would be...hehehe. anyway, selain the wedding, we had our own little birthday celebration for our bro, MamanJit kat luar dewan makan. juz imagine, majlis dok berlangsung lagi, and there we were singing out Happy Birthday to him. hmm...hope nobody terasa hati.

teacher! teacher! what are you so happy about?

kalau students tengok cikgu-cikgu nie, mesti geleng kepala.

the fun did not stop kat luar dewan, the Omarians belted out Selamat Pengantin Baru to the newly weds.

here they were discussing on the lyrics

singing their hearts out..i wish i can put up the vid here...

gambar *skema the Omarians with newlyweds.(note: prim & proper)

and that ends the weekend of fun and laughter.

looking forward to more fun with the family.

2010-07-07T10:56:00.000+08:00

office baru, harus semangat baru..kata kuncinya adalah harus ye puan-puan. but sad to say, rasa macam takde semangat nak datang office. satu, need to travel jauh. dua, bangunan jimat tenaga, ketidak kerasaan aircond. tiga, kurang pilihan kedai makan dan ketiadaan kedai berdekatan yang boleh supply jajan@chocolates. empat, duduk di dalam aquarium mengadap dinding. lima, web-marshall diperkenalkan. enam, ada orang tu suka INTRUDE MY TELECONVERSATION (agak kurang ~~ajar~~ sopan gitu). and the list goes on. the only thing yang boleh hiburkan hati sket, the FB and Twitter yang dah dilepaskan dari kurungan. tapi berapa sangatlah yang nak diFB and yang nak ditweet kan.

"Of all the classes of animal life, mammals are considered the most advanced and probably the most popular class. Dogs and cats are mammals, squirrels and rabbits in our backyards are mammals as well. Horses, sheep, baboons, giraffes and elephants are mammals. For that matter, we human beings are mammals too.

Mammals vary greatly in size. The smallest mammal is the shrew with a body that is only a little more than 2 inches long and weighs less than some insects. In contrast, the largest mammal is the blue whale, which can sometimes measure up to 100 feet long and weigh as much as 130 tons. Mammals also differ in appearance in shape. Most of them walk on four legs, but not all of them do. Some mammals fly. Dolphins and whales have lost their hind limbs and now have taken fish-like shapes and spend their entire lives in the ocean.

What is a mammal? Mammals are vertebrates - they are animals with backbones. All mammals have lungs and breathe in air and all of them are warm-blooded (they are able to maintain a constant body temperature regardless of the outside temperature.) Mammals and birds share a common characteristic - the possession of four-chambered hearts that circulate blood efficiently to all parts of the body. All mammals, except two types that lay eggs, give birth to living young and provide protection and care for them before and after birth. Mammals are the only animals that possess true hair and the capacity to produce milk. In fact, the word "mammal" comes from the Latin word "mamma" which means "breast".

introducing..the aquarium@display box

it's a she and she's available for viewing from 8.30am to 5.30pm daily except for weekends and public holidays.

the adjoining door - for playtime

her view of the world...

woohoo!!! am having a fun time in Putrajaya!

Finally dapat my copy. Tq sis.

2010-07-02T14:45:00.002+08:00

woohoo!! finally dapat jua sesalinan cakera padat Back to Basic.
thank you very much dearest sis. muahs! muahs!

2010-07-01T15:16:00.001+08:00

katalah apa pun, myself still memilih Edward over Jacob.

if i want to go goo-goo ga-ga over someone with a HOT bod, i'll pick Rain anytime.

haha. can't wait to watch Eclipse.

wonder if i can watch it on Friday kat Alamanda?

oooo...need a vampire of my own.

2010-06-22T12:15:00.003+08:00

Siapalah aku untuk menghukum orang lain. Kekhilafan diri sendiri tidak terkata. Kutuk, cacilah sepuas hatimu. Moga ianya dapat memberi sedikit ketenangan pada dirimu. Selesai luahan, renungkanlah diri sendiri. Cukup sempurnakah diri sebagai hambaNya? Doaku moga aku, dia dan mereka memperoleh petunjuk dan keampunan dalam membina hidup yang lebih bermakna.

2010-06-17T12:05:00.003+08:00

peace yo!!

2010-06-16T16:03:00.000+08:00

came home late yesterday, the kids were playing outside. went in and found that the house was in a mess. clothes, pillows and blankets were thrown all over the floor, unwashed dishes and cups in the sink, fans and aircond left opened with no one around. surprisingly i was calm. i did not nag or scream like the usual me. i cleaned up everything except for the dirty dishes. cooked them fried rice and stayed in my room the whole night. was not in the mood to be a mother.

got very emotional then. rindu nak hang out with friends, rindu nak have time to myself doing nothing and worrying about no one, pendek kata rindu segalalah.

this afternoon, faris called me up and cakap faris dah tolong mama basuh pinggan dalam sinki.....

2010-06-11T15:58:00.000+08:00

muka yang kepenatan selepas meredah hutan FRIM

omo! hana hanging out with her future-self and me hanging out with my past. hahaha.

2010-06-08T11:38:00.000+08:00

be my pillow..

2010-06-07T16:46:00.000+08:00

care to lend me your shoulders and hear me out?

2010-06-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

just have to put it up here

so i can view it in the office

credit: ati@FB

2010-05-21T15:21:00.000+08:00

sometimes i get tired of thinking. i'm watching House now where House went into a collapsed building to help a lady. i tried watching this episode last wednesday at home, but it only lasted a couple of minutes. kenapa? i started imagining things. there's me in front of the tube, tiba-tiba terbayangkan ceiling to collapse macam dalam the episode and i switched it off. whenever i hear a thunder, i have this image of me getting struck by a lightning. while driving, i'll see cars from the opposite lane come crashing into my car. in any area with water above my waist, i see myself falling into the water and drowning. while standing on higher grounds, i see me jumping off and falling flat on my face. even taking a prescribed medicine freaks me out. the list can go on and on. i keep thinking and imagining things. freak? screwed up? sick? you tell me.

2010-05-21T11:06:00.001+08:00

Aqil's day out at Genting Highland.

baby of the family yang kepenatan :D

2010-05-20T16:57:00.001+08:00

kenapalah menyeksa diri merindui orang yang tak tahu pun akan kewujudan diri

merajuk dan membawa diri bagai dikhianati

gilakah aku?

mengharap kasih dan belaian menemani malam sepi

bagai pungguk rindukan bulan

2010-05-19T16:59:00.001+08:00

2010-05-13T16:17:00.000+08:00

farhan suka kalau dirinya dicapture on camera...dan juga

meng'capture' dirinya sendiri on the phone camera biler saje berkesempatan.

kenapa dia suka senyum macam tu ek?

2010-05-13T11:09:00.002+08:00

hari ni masuk hari ke-2 sakit kepala. Hmm breathing technique not helping, hilang jap pastu datang balik. musim sejuk kat office nie pun tak membantu. pagi tadi rasanye was the 1^st time I walked out on the kids. couldn’t take the ragam pagi anymore. it made me sad to walk out tapi kepala nie lagi sakit dibuatnye.

sekarang nie makin kerap bermimpi (rasanye) dan tak boleh bukak mata. it’s always the same thing. terjaga berada di tempat yg sama sebelum terlelap, nampak keadaan sekeliling tapi tak boleh nak bukak mata and i had to struggle to baca segala ayat yang tahu. after much hempas pulas and frustration, Alhamdulillah dapat bukak mata tapi I’ll be confused. yesterday had it at the office. pakSu left for a meeting kat luar, kepala nie rasa berat sangat so decided to take a short nap kat meja. lepas tu rasa macam tersentak, terjaga tapi tak boleh bukak mata and tak boleh bersuara. tahu myself ada kat office pasal nampak meja, computer dan segalanya macam biasa. dalam kalut tu dan setelah rasanye penat nak berusaha bukak mata, ada jugak terpikir, eh dah mati ke nie? am I viewing all of these as a dead person? tak tau biler yang tersedar tapi selepas tersedar, memang rasa confused yang teramat sangat. tau-tau dah ada kat sentul. check hari nie kat log book, memang I did not sign out..so definitely keluar sebelum tamat waktu kerja. eerie..pasal I have no memory of driving home.

as I’m typing this out, sebelah kanan masih berdenyut, sebelah kiri kepala rasa sejuk, macam orang pipe in cold water thru my blood vessels. i wish I can take the day off and stay at home but then kalau apa-apa berlaku, i’ll be home alone. sometimes I think and worry too much, kan? Overdo kalu, anxiety creeps in pulak…too weird for a person?

Note: to akak-akak yang dressing vogue ( vo-gey) the vast tu, kurang-kurangkanlah spray minyak wangi tu!!!

2010-05-11T16:19:00.000+08:00

'connected by a red thread'

- MIL has been in the hospital since Saturday. she is said to have pancreatic cancer stage 4. i was told by SIL, the Doc suruh the family bersedia for the worst. -

2010-05-10T16:35:00.000+08:00

sambutan hari Ibu di SJ, dikelolakan oleh anak-anak saudara tersayang. mak ngah couldn't join the party, missed her. this year there's an addition to the group, ibu baru.. Aisyah. sian ibu yang tersayang, sakit-sakit dada dia menahan gelak tengok gelagat anak-anak. need i say more? good food, fabulous company.

promised syu, the bunga will make it to the blog..

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers out there. to those yang berjaya membesarkan anak-anak menjadi insan yang berguna, i salute you. even though i'm a mother to 4 adorable-yet-menguji-kesabaran kids, there are still much for me to learn.

2010-04-26T16:45:00.000+08:00

kadang-kadang geram tengok perangai anak-anak kecil nie

tapi biler moments macam nie occur, all the anger just melts away.

2010-04-23T23:07:00.001+08:00

hmm bukan main lagi si sofia nie. (credit: as per on pic@facebook)

haha..mama pun boleh tahan jugak. lama pegang tangan nampak!! haha, jangan marah haaa...credit:tv3

2010-04-16T16:16:00.001+08:00

2010-04-13T20:37:00.000+08:00

MIL is sick and seeing her in the current state makes me sad. she has always been a strong lady and i believe she will always be. i have not been the perfect DIL but i hope to do some good in the days to come.

Mak has not been her usual self for the past....hmmm agak lama jugaklah. she's 74 this year. baru-baru nie, the doc discovered that she has irregular heartbeats. she has had a couple of episodes of difficulty in breathing, perspiring and vomiting. yelah usia pun dah lanjut, macam-macam penyakit ada. bila kadang-kadang rasa tersangatlah 'down', i will always call up to speak to her. bukan nak bercakap pun. cuma nak dengar suara Mak, the most comforting voice. end up Mak yang nangis biler Mak start bercerita pasal life dia. Mak told me this once "kita nak beli buat apa benda-benda macam tu, kita dah takdak sapa nak tunjuk benda tu".

...Pak passed away depan mata masa bangun untuk sembahyang Subuh - after a few days of fun driving him around Alor Setar.

...Mie passed away in his sleep without any illness - just a couple of days after our big fight.

kita tak boleh melawan takdir. setiap yang hidup, pasti akan mati...i know that. but the thought of losing again.. sangat menyakitkan.

hari nie dapat surat panggil mengadap guru besar sekolah Firdaus...playing truant.

Faris & Farhan fighting in the bathroom...their shouts can be heard sejauh Setapak

Farhana pun nak tunjuk tantrum dia...

life....

luahan rasa di petang selasa.

2010-04-13T15:23:00.000+08:00

....mengagumi aura dan pesona Rain...(fine, i can live with that)
....berangan nak jadi seperti Rain..(urmmm...ok)
....ingin mengecap populariti dan kejayaan yang "lebih besar" daripadanya..(SERIOUSLY????)

2010-04-09T17:15:00.000+08:00

On the 9th, it has been reported that Rain’s fresh released music video for his comeback track Love Song has been deemed inappropriate for broadcast by KBS.
Their reason for such action was not because of the lovey dovey “bed scene” Rain had with the actress Han Ye Seul, but because he had evidently broken the traffic law… by sprinting wildly across the road!
KBS believed that the display of Rain’s “transgression” s was inappropriate to be shown on their channel.
credit: allkpop

hahaha seriously?

i thought it was the scene where he tore his shirt off and made the meliuk sana and meliuk sini movement.

2010-04-09T15:18:00.000+08:00

haha! sangat cute!

2010-04-09T09:42:00.000+08:00

kalau sakit kepala atau rasa lelah cubalah terapi pernafasan ini. myself dah cuba dan alhamdulillah berkesan..sekaligus mengurangkan jumlah pengambilan actifast pada tahun ini.

untuk sakit kepala: tutup lubang hidung sebelah kanan dan bernafas melalui hidung sebelah kiri. lakukan kira-kira 5 minit, insyaAllah sakit kepala akan sembuh.

myself selalunya akan ambil 2 biji actifast and tidor. kalau tidor without actifast, biler bangun the next day, kepala masih berdenyut-denyut. tapi alhamdulillah, now kalau sakit kepala..all i do is lie down, relax and buat the terapi sampai terlelap. the next morning....segar, alhamdulilllah.

untuk lelah: tutup lubang hidung sebelah kiri dan bernafas melalui hidung sebelah kanan. lakukan berulangkali. insyaAllah akan rasa segar kembali.

sudah cuba and cukup berkesan.

kalau ikut notes nye: sebelah kanan hidung akan mengeluarkan panas and kiri akan mengeluarkan dingin.

and kalau marah ngan anak-anak, jangan lupa untuk bernafas menggunakan kedua-dua belah lubang hidung. :D

2010-04-08T09:19:00.001+08:00

there's a face in a crowd

that will always stand out

just by looking at the face

makes me happy

it's not love nor a huge crush

it's just a face

with the right tone of colour

and the right amount of moustache.

2010-04-03T12:17:00.001+08:00

it was a crappy friday and has lasted until saturday.
dearest niece is gonna do a house warming this afternoon.
don't feel like going but then it would not be nice, right?
after all, she has been there for me thru my ups and downs
she has put up with my kids nye behavior. layan itu n ini.
aaahh...what will i do without her.
family makan-makan is always nice.
makan, gossip, makan, laugh, makan, joke around
i don't have to pretend to be ok biler
orang start bercerita about their other half and their so-near perfect life
i'm no longer in that circle...out, out, out....gone
dek kerana being who i am right now
i may not have anyone at my funeral other than my family..
this is bad. i am in a hole and i don't feel like getting out of it.

2010-04-02T20:31:00.000+08:00

orang kata kalau emosi tengah tak betul, jangan marah orang nanti jadi lebih teruk. nanti keluar perkataan-perkataan yang tak sesuai untuk didengar.

well, emosi aku memang terganggu hari nie. jap aku nangis, jap aku gelak, jap aku termenung. aku on a no-talk mode ngan anak-anak aku hari ini. lagi banyak aku bercakap, lagi berserabut rasanye.

aku ada banyak benda yang dipikirkan dan banyak tanggungjawab untuk dipikul. jangan peningkan kepala aku dengan benda yang remeh-temeh. aku tak expect untuk kau faham sebab sampai bila-bila pun kau tak akan faham.

boleh?

2010-04-02T15:43:00.000+08:00

arrgghhh!!! i'm in the office and this is all i get to see...since no access to YTube

Love Song MV released today!!!

2010-04-01T15:15:00.000+08:00

2010-04-01T10:19:00.000+08:00

me new workstation in Putrajaya office. definitely needs some decoration.

sangat suka kawasan tengah building.

bangunan imigresen di hadapan

2010-03-31T20:19:00.003+08:00

hyperventilating!!

2010-03-31T14:32:00.002+08:00

teaser here, teaser there..everywhere also teaser. aiseh! bilerlah nak kluar the whole thing
pre-order CD rm72 plus RM6 for shipping. macam nak je

oh tidak!! Rain ku diciumi!! haha!!

2010-03-30T10:18:00.001+08:00

this is me playing around

2010-03-29T13:52:00.000+08:00

so i like these two boys and sometimes i go craziee over them. i don't expect people to understand why. people boleh kata, apalah perempuan tak sedar diri nie. like, WHATEVER!!!

so you...yes you know who you are. go goo goo gaa gaa over you know who, we'll remind each other if we were to go overboard. have fun, we deserve it.

2010-03-28T23:07:00.002+08:00

don't like to because whenever i do, i feel like crap and i end up hating my life. but how do i explain it to people. my explanation will only seem that i am a selfish biage. so forgive me.

at times it's hard for me to put on a happy face and laugh along and pretend that everything is ok. i am just a human being. penuh dengan rasa cemburu dan iri hati. so forgive me.

so is the thing that i am doing now is helping at all? nope. and why do i continue to do so? i don't know.

i have lost a lot of things and friends along the way. some that i hope will someday be mine again. insyaAllah.

note: explains the single friends.

2010-03-25T14:46:00.000+08:00

it's that time again.

we should have earth hour every single day.

i'm doing it everyday here in the office by minimizing the usage of lights in my room.

it's better than nothing, kan?

2010-03-25T12:22:00.000+08:00

datang je april @ secretaries week..maka angaulah diriku. haha..angau pasal tak dapat nak pi tengok show Anuar Zain.

kalau ikutkan hati nak je beli tiket sendiri..itu kalau ikutkan hati lah. tapi kalau ikutkan jantung nie..adus tak tertanggung excitementnya..lantas takut hilang kawalan diri..ku dengar kata jantungku. kang terover excited and terpengsan kat meja makan tu sapa nak jawab? anuar jugak yg kena jawabnye..hehehe.

pak Su meeting dari pagi and myself melayari internet ngan sepuas hatinya mencari video klip AZ. nota pada bebudak IT: sungguhpun korang block youtube, ada byk lagi source yang boleh dicarik.

so, biler AZ senyum, i senyum. i feel him. feel him singing this song to me....aaaaahhh.

say what u want to say...mak nye hati ngan perasaan, maknye sukalah!!

2010-03-24T12:24:00.000+08:00

2010-03-24T10:27:00.000+08:00

preettieeeeee

credit: sixtofive1982

2010-03-23T15:17:00.000+08:00

me: kak, nak pisang goreng (sambil menunjuk ke satu kuali penuh dgn pisang yg sedang digoreng) rm2.

kak: dah orang order lah dik semua nie.

me and friend p duduk order teh tarik sementara tunggu hujan reda.

sedang minum teh ternampak kakak tu angkat pisang tadi yg dah siap digoreng keluar dari kuali and masukkan lagi satu batch of pisang.

dengan harapan yang berbunga-bunga untuk makan pisang goreng masa hujan,

myself pun bangun lah ke gerai dia

me: kak, yg baru goreng nie boleh order dulu rm2?

kak: yang nie pun dah ada orang order.

me: lepas nie ada goreng lagi?

kak: lepas nie goreng keropok lekor pulak. ada orang order jugak.

me: hmmm...macam nielah kak, saya order kat akak rm2 hari ni, esok saya datang amik ye.

maka berlalulah pergi dengan kehampaan.

nota pada diri: nak makan pisang goreng kalu harus goreng sendiri.

2010-03-22T12:38:00.000+08:00

first and foremost harus apologize lagi sekali to my sisters, nieces and nephew for my outburst juz before the makan2. did not mean to do what i did cuma mungkin dari rumah agak tense sudah ngan drama kanak-kanak yang berlangsung dari pagi ditambah plak ngan emosi yang bercelaru selepas menonton gilmore girls..haha. seriously i love you guys.

getting ready to take pictures

getting there

FINALLY..one perfect shot

well...not so perfect..mak decided to look away. hmm

and one shot with us being US. hehe

yeah..yeah..tak lupa the anak2 sedara

thanx Tza for the lovely Laksa Siam which always remind me of the siamese cat song

2010-03-19T15:56:00.000+08:00

it's your birthday Mak. yup, your 74th.

looking forward to Sunday. love you Mak.

2010-03-18T16:40:00.000+08:00

credit: virginia calloway@flickr

2010-03-18T14:57:00.001+08:00

i’m just tired

tired of every dream and expectation i had

when i was a kid falling into pieces before my

eyes. i wish people had been honest with me.

i wish they’d tell me to prepare myself for a

life time of disappointment and heartbreak.

i wish they’d tell me that I’m never going to

grow out of my awkwardness, so i’d better get

used to it.

i think movies should have disclaimers at the

beginning; these events will never occur in

real life, if they did you wouldn’t be sitting

inside watching a fucking movie.

i suppose we’re all a bit lonely and broken.

i suppose most of us just go through life,

waiting for things do get better. for some

they do, for others they don’t. i reckon it’s

up to us to make the best out of it.

question is, am I strong enough to try?

2010-03-18T14:43:00.000+08:00

eventually,

you will only be a bad memory to me.

2010-03-17T11:05:00.000+08:00

sometimes it's just a cupcake away.

2010-03-17T09:30:00.003+08:00

takde yang lebih menyepoilkan mood biler one of my kids put on a tantrum pepagi buta. farhan decided to start his day with picking a fight with hana depan bilik air and continued all the way to the mamak roti and taska. he woke the whole of sentul pagi nie ngan jeritan tarzan dia. biler mood takde nak pi keje pun malas.

masuk keta, pasang rainism...layaaaaan. hmm..kalau I car pool sure no small talk. payah kan biler kena control mood around other people - the downside of car pooling

2010-03-16T10:31:00.000+08:00

sana sini orang dok bertanya,

so Wan, macam mana nak p keje kat putrajaya nanti?

drive sendiri? naik public transportation?

eh! naper tak pikirkan lagi, dah nak bulan 6 dah nie.

i’m sorry tapi wan amal malas nak pikirkan lagi.

when the time comes, i’ll think of something.

so, anak-anak macam mana?

pindah sekolah? pindah rumah? tak cari rumah kat sana ker?

seribu satu soalan setiap hari.

naik rimaslah dibuatnye.

kenapa tak itu, kenapa tak ini

why aren’t you doing anything about this or that

why, why, why, why…….

2010-03-15T16:37:00.000+08:00