Monday, October 15, 2012

buying a house is a big decision. location, price, nearby facilities yadiya yadiya yadiya. am in the midst of buying a house, yes at this age.
been going through advert by advert each and every working day. dah naik pening. found a place that would not burn a hole in the pocket by end of the month, enough rooms for everybody, location wise - far from the current place but nearer to the workplace. a nearby house in a familiar surrounding with all the necessary facilities, less space and costs a bomb. 
making this decision is scary. moving to somewhere affordable means i will be far away from people and places that are familiar to me, scary. what if i have a panic attack in the middle of the night? what if i hear noises in the house and am too afraid to check it out. what if, what if, what if...
a nearby place gives a sense of security - knowing that i can call out to someone that i know just in case anything should happen in the middle of the night.
maka....saya membuat keputusan untuk mencari jodoh. bila dah ada partner, doesn't matter where i stay kan? :D

Thursday, October 11, 2012

.....our wounds remind us of where we have been and what we have overcome. even remind us what to avoid in the future..but sometimes it doesn't work that way. sometimes we have to learn over again.

Friday, October 5, 2012

am happy and sad at the same time.
happy that we are having normal conversations like we used to.
and happy to know that i do cross your mind, occasionally.
sad to know that you were confused about the dreams that you had.
and am sad too about that feeling of yours.
when i said my goodbye just now, it felt like that was my last goodbye.
just so you know, the haunted house has a special place in my heart.