Wednesday, March 31, 2010

hyperventilating!!
teaser here, teaser there..everywhere also teaser. aiseh! bilerlah nak kluar the whole thing

pre-order CD rm72 plus RM6 for shipping. macam nak je


oh tidak!! Rain ku diciumi!! haha!!

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Monday, March 29, 2010

so i like these two boys and sometimes i go craziee over them. i don't expect people to understand why. people boleh kata, apalah perempuan tak sedar diri nie. like, WHATEVER!!!
so you...yes you know who you are. go goo goo gaa gaa over you know who, we'll remind each other if we were to go overboard. have fun, we deserve it.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

don't like to because whenever i do, i feel like crap and i end up hating my life.  but how do i explain it to people. my explanation will only seem that i am a selfish biage. so forgive me.
at times it's hard for me to put on a happy face and laugh along and pretend that everything is ok. i am just a human being. penuh dengan rasa cemburu dan iri hati. so forgive me. 
so is the thing that i am doing now is helping at all? nope. and why do i continue to do so? i don't know.
i have lost a lot of things and friends along the way. some that i hope will someday be mine again. insyaAllah.
note: explains the single friends.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

 it's that time again.
we should have earth hour every single day.
i'm doing it everyday here in the office by minimizing the usage of lights in my room.
it's better than nothing, kan?
datang je april @ secretaries week..maka angaulah diriku. haha..angau pasal tak dapat nak pi tengok show Anuar Zain. 
kalau ikutkan hati nak je beli tiket sendiri..itu kalau ikutkan hati lah. tapi kalau ikutkan jantung nie..adus tak tertanggung excitementnya..lantas takut hilang kawalan diri..ku dengar kata jantungku. kang terover excited and terpengsan kat meja makan tu sapa nak jawab? anuar jugak yg kena jawabnye..hehehe.
pak Su meeting dari pagi and myself melayari internet ngan sepuas hatinya mencari video klip AZ. nota pada bebudak IT: sungguhpun korang block youtube, ada byk lagi source yang boleh dicarik.
so, biler AZ senyum, i senyum. i feel him. feel him singing this song to me....aaaaahhh.

say what u want to say...mak nye hati ngan perasaan, maknye sukalah!!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010


me:  kak, nak pisang goreng (sambil menunjuk ke satu kuali penuh dgn pisang yg sedang digoreng) rm2.
kak: dah orang order lah dik semua nie.
me and friend p duduk order teh tarik sementara tunggu hujan reda.
sedang minum teh ternampak kakak tu angkat pisang tadi yg dah siap digoreng keluar dari kuali and masukkan lagi satu batch of pisang.
dengan harapan yang berbunga-bunga untuk makan pisang goreng masa hujan,
myself pun bangun lah ke gerai dia
me: kak, yg baru goreng nie boleh order dulu rm2?
kak: yang nie pun dah ada orang order. 
me: lepas nie ada goreng lagi?
kak: lepas nie goreng keropok lekor pulak. ada orang order jugak.
me: hmmm...macam nielah kak, saya order kat akak rm2 hari ni, esok saya datang amik ye.
maka berlalulah pergi dengan kehampaan.
nota pada diri: nak makan pisang goreng kalu harus goreng sendiri.

Monday, March 22, 2010

first and foremost harus apologize lagi sekali to my sisters, nieces and nephew for my outburst juz before the makan2. did not mean to do what i did cuma mungkin dari rumah agak tense sudah ngan drama kanak-kanak yang berlangsung dari pagi ditambah plak ngan emosi yang bercelaru selepas menonton gilmore girls..haha. seriously i love you guys. 
getting ready to take pictures
getting there
FINALLY..one perfect shot
well...not so perfect..mak decided to look away. hmm
and one shot with us being US. hehe
yeah..yeah..tak lupa the anak2 sedara
 thanx Tza for the lovely Laksa Siam which always remind me of the siamese cat song

Friday, March 19, 2010

it's your birthday Mak. yup, your 74th.
looking forward to Sunday. love you Mak.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

credit: virginia calloway@flickr

i’m just tired
tired of every dream and expectation i had
when i was a kid falling into pieces before my
eyes.  i wish people had been honest with me.
i wish they’d tell me to prepare myself for a
life time of disappointment and heartbreak.

i wish they’d tell me that I’m never going to
grow out of my awkwardness, so i’d better get
used to it.

i think movies should have disclaimers at the
beginning; these events will never occur in
real life, if they did you wouldn’t be sitting
inside watching a fucking movie.

i suppose we’re all a bit lonely and broken.
i suppose most of us just go through life,
waiting for things do get better.  for some
they do, for others they don’t. i reckon it’s
up to us to make the best out of it.
question is, am I strong enough to try?
eventually, 
you will only be a bad memory to me.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

sometimes it's just a cupcake away.

takde yang lebih menyepoilkan mood biler one of my kids put on a tantrum pepagi buta. farhan decided to start his day with picking a fight with hana depan bilik air and continued all the way to the mamak roti and taska. he woke the whole of sentul pagi nie ngan jeritan tarzan dia. biler mood takde nak pi keje pun malas.
masuk keta, pasang rainism...layaaaaan.  hmm..kalau I car pool sure no small talk. payah kan biler kena control mood around other people - the downside of car pooling

Tuesday, March 16, 2010


sana sini orang dok bertanya,
so Wan, macam mana nak p keje kat putrajaya nanti?
drive sendiri? naik public transportation?
eh! naper tak pikirkan lagi, dah nak bulan 6 dah nie.
i’m sorry tapi wan amal malas nak pikirkan lagi.
when the time comes, i’ll think of something.
so, anak-anak macam mana?
pindah sekolah? pindah rumah? tak cari rumah kat sana ker?
seribu satu soalan setiap hari.
naik rimaslah dibuatnye.
kenapa tak itu, kenapa tak ini
why aren’t you doing anything about this or that
why, why, why, why…….

Friday, March 12, 2010

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Wednesday, March 10, 2010


Do you ever get the feeling that you don’t just fit in?
I’m kind of feeling that way now.
 Their lives and mine are totally different.
We do different things and go to different places.
We shop and dine at different places.
This feeling that I have is it because I envy them? I don’t know, maybe so.
she's a survivor.
i wish to have her courage and strength.

Monday, March 8, 2010