Friday, July 31, 2009

am i gonna talk about Zac Efron? hahaha...nolah. juz wanted to put some eye candy for my post. or maybe pasal i was thinking about the song "get my head in the game" that brought his face to mind. anyway, i've calmed down since monday and able to think rationally, so i think it's time to get my head in the game...getcha getcha head in the game, we gotta get our, get our, get our, get our head in the game...(everybody sing-a-long). this worrying thing is inviting anxiety and vertigo for visits. on top of that, i have zits popping up like cendawan lepas hujan. hmm...washing me face day and night macam tak memberi apa-apa kesan. i'm gonna try the positive thinking as mentioned by RoseRibbon..(i simply love the word Ribbon, LOL).
p/s: even though i seem to be a "hu ha hu ha" person kat sini tapi insyaAllah, masih ingat kepadaNya. so don't worry.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

the story of my life just took a twist. a twist that is screwing my head day and night.
my apologies goes out to..
those who sent me sms(s) and text via YM..(sorry for not replying to any)
the person with whom i rode the LRT with..(sorry for totally ignoring you)
my 3 kids who have to bear with my mood swings during this time of drama
and to dearest sisters and BILs for having to put up with all that had happened.
as the song goes
kau terangi jiwaku, kau redupkan lagi
kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

"little imperfections that make them perfect for you"

Monday, July 27, 2009


korean look? hahaha..has the korean bug caught my Farhan?

Friday, July 24, 2009

sofia bday



an overdue birthday entry for Sofia Zaharah


sofia bash

Thursday, July 23, 2009

tomorrow is friday.
the day after is the weekend.
i used to look forward to weekends.
two days of just lazing around with the kids
or hanging out with beloved siblings and mom.
now i just hate weekends.
weekends only mean two things - heartache and headache.
i seriously hate weekends!!!!
these are the few shows that i must watch whenever i'm at home or whenever i have the chance. i can't remember the last time i watched a Malaysian-production on tv (sangat tidak membanggakan sebagai rakyat Malaysia).
The conventional quiz program with a dinner time variety show. About 20 stars, singers, performers, comedians, sports stars, and others, are invited to the show, and they entertain views through their good will to help poor students. In the massive set, the stars compete with the quiz and also do the talent show between the segments to win money for students in financial diffucullty.
The first features Nicole from Kara playing a version of a word guessing game with each line; due to her relative inexperience with the Korean language, the segment has become popular among viewers.
(my fav part of the show..i'll be guessing the words with them)

Talk show with a new concept. Korea is a country where purity in lineage has been upheld for tens of centuries. Now with more than 1 million foreigners who are making Korea their home, Korea tries to become a multi-cultural country. Ladies from many different cultures talk about what is good and bad, funny and boring, and making sense and nonsense in Korea. Sixteen non-Korean single women living in Korea get together for a discussion with the emcee Nam Hi-seok and five male panels. They take part in a poll on selected subject and discuss about the results.
my favs would be Sayuri (japan), Bianca (usa), Vera (germany) and Eva (uk). There used to be a Malaysian by the name of Sophia, but i only saw her a few times..masa nie berangan lah myself yang duduk kat situ chatting with them, boleh? ^-^\/.

Kang Hodong and five friends take off on a memorable road-trip around Korea! Instead of fancy studio, this variety show takes place in nature. They travel to the rural side, the fishing towns and the mountains. There, they find welcoming smiles of our neighbors and the nature that cleanse their eyes. Kang Hodong, Kim C, Lee Soogun, Eun Jiwon, Lee Seungki, MC Mong show every moment of their one night trip from the moment they begin. (perlu nonton sendiri, tak rugi!!)

wonder why takde production kat sini yang buat game show or variety show yang tak skema...ataupun personaliti2 yang semuanya kontrol macho dan ayu. or disebabkan perbezaan budaya dan bahasa yang menjadikan show mereka lebih menarik? hmm...i guess so.. another on my list would be Taiwanese variety show..Guess, Guess, Guess.

Guess Guess Guess (Wǒ Cāi Wǒ Cāi Wǒ Cāi Cāi Cāi) is a Taiwanesetelevision show, currently hosted by Jacky Wu. It airs weekly in Taiwan on the network television station China Television.

Each show usually consists of 2 segments, "The truth cannot be faked" and "Do not judge a book by its cover" but every now and then, especially during festivals, there will be specially organized segments.

In the first segment, "The truth cannot be faked", 3 persons will be invited, each claiming to be able to accomplish something seemingly unbelievable. However, only 2 of them are telling the truth. Invited celebrities will then have to distinguish ("guess") the one who is lying, failing which they will be sprayed with cold mist.

In the second segment, "Do not judge a book by its cover", there will be a mini-contest, with 5 people vying for a title, such as "Prettiest schoolgirl", and invited celebrities are again asked to guess which one of them will be the eventual winner. The winner is usually picked by a panel of experts.

Many Taiwanese celebrities have been first "discovered" by their participation in this show, such as the winners of the mini-contests held in the segment "Do not judge a book by its cover". Some budding Taiwanese artistes have also used this show as a launching pad for their hosting or singing careers. Lastly, invited Taiwanese celebrities used the show to promote their latest albums, books, shows, etc.

..and another game show shown on 8tv, can't remember the name...tapi memang selamba. another one is Masquarade (Japanese) shown on TV3. i can go on and on and on pasal variety shows nie. i take it as part of therapy (hmm segalanya therapy for you, ek?). try handling 3 naughty-yet-adorable-but-everything-also-want-and-don't-want-to-mengalah kids and you'll get me.
p/s: are one variety show freak wan amal!!!!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

5 Benefits of Dark Chocolate

  1. Studies have shown dark chocolate to lower blood pressure
  2. Studies have also shown dark chocolate to lower bad cholesterol (LDL)
  3. It turns women on more than a passionate kissing session (no wonder they want it for Valentine's Day!)
  4. Contains serotonin, a natural mood-boosting anti-depressant
  5. Stimulates pleasure-inducing endorphin production

Monday, July 20, 2009

credit: colourandlight@flickr

terus melangkah melupakanmu
lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu
jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan

perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
kucoba untuk terus menjauh
perlahan hatiku terbelenggu
kucoba untuk lanjutkan hidup

engkau bukanlah segalaku
bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
usai sudah semua berlalu
biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

lepaskanlah segalanya
lepaskanlah segalanya

Thursday, July 16, 2009

days have their ups and downs.
today seems to be my down day.
it may seem nothing much to others but it sure does to me.
i feel like a total loser for not being able to handle them well
and i am blaming you for what has happened and will happen.
i wish to stop the tears that are welling in my eyes right now..
i wish for..
i wish for..
i just wish.......

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

this thing has been going on like forever. tak kisahlah korang nak bercinta or nak berkahwin but you should treat him with respect lah. adus!!! tersangatlah geramnya ngan LM. leaving him like that. orang tua-tua kata kalau takut ngan ombak, jangan buat rumah di tepi pantai. hmm..i hope she grows up and treats him well.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

i should not say this sebab takut terkena balik ke batang hidung sendiri tapi teramatlah geramnye. dahlah tergedik-gedik macam kera kena belacan pastu gelak macam pontianak meroyan, buat muka bodoh potong queue.."eh line skrg nie macam lambatlah, i diri depan u ek?" wah!! sesuka hati je. i was not in the mood untuk bercakap but i did give her the stare. gaya berdiri tu macam panas bontot jugaklah and occasionally will bertentang mata ngan i tapi masih buat muka bodoh bangang berdiri kat depan kawan dia in my line. uish!! nak je rasanye......

it has been ages rasanye the last i mimpikan Mie
entah macam mana last nite..there you were in my dream
everything seem so real
the touch...
the kiss...
the smile...

no words were spoken but we understood each other
and as usual, after each dream of us together
will leave me exhausted and confused the next morning.
p.s: though i rarely say it now, but i still do love and miss you much. Al-Fatihah.

Monday, July 13, 2009

i'm enjoying my day at the office today.
dearest boss went off early to LHDN (thanx a bunch guys for not answering our calls)
have something to look forward to now every Monday afternoon
since Entourage started it's 6th season yesterday

found a new site for me to play around with
am hoping everything nice today will last until tomorrow
am also wishing for some R A I N in Kuala Lumpur.
credit: sixtofive1982
woke up from a pleasant dream
i was all smiles
nothing the kids did this morning managed to dampen my spirit
no Monday blues
only the colours of rainbow ;)
and i have the guy above to thank to
no, it was nothing 18sx
or in a fanatic craze kind of way..
it was simple and sweet.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

the lift stopped midway - 6 & 7. i was on my way to the 12th floor. 1st reaction was, ok i can do this. press the emergency bell. once - no respond. twice - no respond. then all of a sudden a rush of panic took over me. all i wanted to do was scream and try to open the door. called up syu, she was on her way to see a doctor. she suggested me to call up her mom, which i did. the sound of her voice was just so comforting. breathe in, breathe out, breathe from your stomach. and i tried again, rang the bell for the third time. i was greeted by a security personnel. continued to talk to my sis. on and off the security personnel and another technician would talk over the intercom, comforting and assuring me that help is on its way. it lasted about 15 - 20 minutes which felt like a whole day just passed by.
glad i was alone. kalau ada 2-3 orang kemungkinan yang akan berlaku...
  • kalau yang terperangkap tu semuanya ada panic attack like myself, apa cite?
  • pastu kalau ada sorang terlepas angin..haru.
  • buatnye ada sorang pervert dalam tu..uish!
moral of the story, tukarlah pakai line Celcom (tak kisahlah promo free) dalam lift pun boleh dapat line. bukan macam line M**** yang i pakai dulu, once masuk lift je..terus kaput. the reason i tak teruskan ngan M**** pasal takut kalau tersangkut dalam lif tak boleh nak call orang. never thought akan betul2 terjadi pun juz sediakan payung sebelum hujan..nah!! skali dia bagi try da.
p/s: tak sempat nak amik gambar masa pintu dibuka and nampak kepala mamat technician tu je, kalau tak baru real sket entry nie. ^_^ \/

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

malam ini kusendiri
hati ini selalu sepi
tuhan kirimkanlah aku
tak ada yang menemani
tak ada yang menghiasi
kekasih yang baik hati
seperti malam-malam
seperti cinta ini
yang mencintai aku
yang sudah sudah
yang slalu pupus
apa adanya

mawar ini semakin layu, tak ada yang memiliki, seperti aku ini, semakin pupus.
i'll be looking out for this too in a week's time. woohoo!!
nope, am not a big fan of Johnny Depp (don't ask why)
but somehow am really looking forward to Public Enemies
thinking of going during long lunch break on Friday

p/s: he looks kinda FINE in his tee.

Monday, July 6, 2009

selalu kan, walau macam mana stress pun setiap pagi setelah berurusan ngan kanak-kanak riang nie, biler pasang earphone, volume up sket sambil dengar mix fm atau Ariel ataupun Rain...mesti rasa happy je...sehappy sikecil kat bawah nie.
setakat gelak sorang-sorang dalam LRT tu dah jadi perkara biasa dah. try listening to Pietro and Serena C in the morning, memang kelakar. ataupun singing along to whoever is singing to me that morning, memang rasa lega sket. kejap je ilang stress tu. biler sampai kat traffic lite before reaching office..stress balik. mat-mat motor yang tak reti bahasa berhenti atas laluan pejalan kaki. they expect kita orang nie jalan kat tengah-tengah jalan depan dia orang. bayangkan keta yang datang dari depan, bawak selaju-lajunya nak beat the police traffic. adalah 3-4 kali jugaklah mulut nie berani sound dia orang "apasal tak berenti kat tengah-tengah jalan terus, lagi bagus"..jeling plak dia kat kita..tau marah. kalau ada mat-mat motor yang membaca nie atau yang ada sepupu sepapat korang yang buat keje macam nie, cubalah nasihatkan depa sikit. kalau badan kita orang nie kebal, boleh je kita orang jalan tengah-tengah jalan tu.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

i think i went overboard during Anuar's concert coz i can still remember every moment clearly and feeling very guilty. i feel the need to apologize to the makcik who sat next to me, mesti tahap pendengaran dia dah berkurangan by 25%. and sorry to the two pretty boys that were seated next to the makcik. they were around for the 1st half of the concert and somehow disappeared during the 2nd half. maybe they too couldn't take me screaming Anuar's name at the top of my lungs. to the pakcik sitting in front, seribu kemaafan biler pakcik terkejut-kejut dengan jeritan dan nyanyian saya pada separuh masa pertama. saya rasa biler masuk separuh masa kedua, pakcik pun dah sama naik ngan saya geleng-geleng kepala, tepuk dan bersorak sebab Anuar nyanyi lagu-lagu retro zaman pakcik. so kita evenlah ek, saya distract pakcik, pakcik distract saya. eh lupa plak, sorry jugak pasal saya ngan kakak saya gelakkan pakcik biler pakcik naik syiok sorak kan Anuar. to the couple kat belakang, sorrylah ek pasal terpaksa menyaksikan konsert di antara kedua-dua tangan ku. bukannya apa, biler tak bergoyang tangan kat atas tu rasa macam tak feel je. and tak lupa jugak pada couple yang duduk sebelah kiri pakcik tu. tapi rasanya sorry saya pada anda hanyalah setakat 15% kerana anda lovey dovey sangat, buat wa jealous. nak jugak ucapkan terima kasih kat abang kamera kat tepi kita orang. terima kasih for the 3 seconds fame..hehehe...naik jugak muka comel ku kat screen depan tu. and lastly to Anuar, lain kali nyanyi..nyanyi terus je, jangan borak and usik orang lama-lama sangat...anda hanya akan membuat saya bertindak di luar kawalan.
terima kasih jua pada kakak ku, yang sket lebih kurang diriku juga...menyanyi dan bersorak di kala kegembiraan..cuma kegembiraan dia ada batasnye (yelah, kang semput kang, nak kena jawab ngan A'Zubir plak, jenuh!)
note to self: harus berpada-pada gitu biler menyaksikan shows by eligible bachelors.
oops terlupa sudah. maaf to the organiser and istana budaya jugak ek..pasal the bunting.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Anuar Zain ikut balik…

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hari ini duduk kat bawah..dekat sket ngan stage. puas sikit tengok and to top it, had good company. dearest Kak Rufa was there..we sang, we clapped, we swayed and the best part, we screamed..forgetting our mother and wife status. hahahaha. memang gempaq lah kakak ku. boleh dibawak ke majlis. this was us before the konsert bermula.


and this is us during the break..notice the faces…senyum lebih gitu.

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i took a lot of pictures tapi my hands were shaking and i started to have palpitation during his last song and most of them are out of focus. hmm..sayang. all in all i had great fun and all problems were forgotten during that couple of hours i was there.


serious Anuar ikut balik. lepas amik gambar kat atas nie, dia terus pegang tangan and kata nak ikut balik..diriku tak bersalah.


Wednesday, July 1, 2009

mak telah melupakan diri pada malam ini dek kerana Konsert Lelaki Ini Anuar Zain. dapat tiket dari salah seorang pegawai kat dept lama..bagai orang mengantuk disorong bantal..rezeki jangan ditolak.

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guess they were surprised to see me in action..singing and screaming at the top of my lungs…hehehehe…jangan serik ye puan-puan ku. cuma kurang satu je, kalau ada geng bangun nari tadi, dah sure join sekaki.

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