Friday, May 30, 2008

have never been a big fan of rain, except for Rain the korean artist
..apa lagi kalau kilat sabung menyabung..
KL macam nak ditelan oleh awan hitam..




Thursday, May 22, 2008

it's no use crying over spilt milk dearie..
--> y didn't anyone pulled me back on track?
<-- actually 4 the record, everybody tried but u didn't want 2 listen 2 anyone. d more dtegur, d more u reteliate. u seem 2 think that no one cared 4 u. it was difficult.
--> how did i turn out the way i did? some things juz didn't made sense.
<-- sometimes we block things that are painful 2 remember. Don't look back, Allah has plans that byd our control.
--> y didn't i juz walk away? even when i felt like it. do you think they ever forgave me?
<-- i'm sure they did. we r parents ourselves, wpun marah tapi sayang anak2 kan? walk away?
--> walk away frm whateva tht was holding me. u knw wht, the past still haunts me day n nite.
<-- don't hate me 4 saying this. it was meant 2 be. we can't control fate.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

u definitely have a mood swing amal. it is very hard to really understand u. one minute u're laughing your head off, the next minute u're shutting everyone out. what seems to be the problem amal? don't u like them? don't u need them? how r u suppose to get by if u distance yourself? did someone said something to u that might have offended u? were u sexually harrassed? anything i can help u with?
eeuw..wish i can answer all those questions.
all i know is i miss u gals. wishing that i could spend more time with u. missing the old days when there were not much responsibility. wishing for the carefree life that i once had. missing our late nite snacks, laughs, flirting and all the conversations that we had about life, love and all those in between.
i may be in my early 30s but i don't feel like it..nuff said about husbands, kids, political views, etc.. i juz wanna be me oldself.

Friday, May 16, 2008

they said i'm strong. strong ker? sometimes rasa macam nak juz give up everything and juz let it be. bercakap macam orang tak waras? hmm..susah nak cakap. rasanye kewarasan masih di tahap yang boleh dikawal cuma kadang-kadang rasa terlebih geram dengan apa yang berlaku. bila sesuatu perkara tu berada di luar kawalan, memanglah amat memenatkan dan menyedihkan. sebak bila dipikirkan balik. kadang-kadang menyesali tindakan sendiri, kadang-kadang gembira. macam confuse kan? 1 single second changes everything in your life. adus!! dari awal lagi, it was put on me and now i'm still at it. life can be unfair. . i was pissed off the other day..juz so happened i was at the office. cuba jugak nak menahan kemarahan dan kegeraman yang teramat sangat, tapi kadang-kadang terhempas jugak pintu..bukan salah tangan..salah emosi yang berkecamuk..hehehe. depa tanya jugak naper..whether i was mad with someone at the office..as i said..it juz so happened i was at the office on that day. ..
kadang-kadang terasa susah jugak kan kalau nak kena compete for people's attention and love. i'm facing it now. no matter what u say or do, sesetengah orang tak pernah puas hati. benci betullah!! and then bila rasa dah terhutang budi dengan banyaknye..tak dapat nak buat keputusan yang tepat. (walaupun in realiti kalau dikira dari awal, tak dapat cover pun apa yang telah kita usahakan)...uiks..ada lagi negative feeling tu ek, amal. hmmm..be nice or be blunt???

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

rasa macam dah puas menangis. don't need the legacy.

Monday, May 12, 2008

the Wans mother's day was celebrated on 10th may walaupun pada sebetulnya mother's day jatuh pada 11 Mei. we had our makan-makan on saturday pasal Kak Dah & family came from Kuantan. pada asalnya nak gi lunch kat rebung tapi memandangkan Kak Dah dijangka sampai lambat, so it was cancelled. we had pot luck instead kat rumah Kak in SJ. we had barbequed chicken, fish, sausages, lamb kebab, fried kuay teow, fried mee, garlic bread..hmm apa lagi ek..rasa mcm banyak lagi. well, when the Wans makan..memang penuh meja. the newly engaged Aisya & Ali were asked to grill the chickens..ahaks..sian Ali..blum apa2 lagi dah kena perah keringat. we invited Pak Tam & Mak Tam along to join.
gadis "Canadian" yang disuruh ngadap grill yang panas...hmm berpeluh!!Atam in pink tudung, Tza and bibik gearing up to grill the chickens before dihand over pada Aisya & Ali.Ali yang dikerah untuk nyalakan api...kui3.7 hot mamas in the house with special guests mak tam & mak dearest..pak tam too wanted his pic to be taken with all the hot mamas in the house..hehehe..dia kata no wonder God gave him semua anak laki, dia ada ramai anak pompuan.atam & mak bersantai kat luar lepas dah sudah maghrib & makan.
All in all the makan2 was good, the company was superb, the gifts were very thoughtful.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008



the Wans had their family picnic lagi sekali on 3 May..cuma kali nie, Syu was not around, A'chik kena p seminar, Aisya & Ali came tapi stayed kejap je pasal ada appointment lain, abang's family and cippa's family came. crowd mulanye kecik je..sementara tunggu yang lain sampai, we had our munchie-munchie dlu. orang lain mai park untuk bersenam tapi we all datang makan je. tapi kalau difikirkan balik, we did our part in exercising jugak..jaw exercises. hehehe. bila semua dah sampai, KakChah, the game master, started a series of games for the kids. yang pandai tulis, yang tak pandai tulis semuanya join. hahaha..yang bestnye Mak had to be the sponsor untuk budak-budaknye gifts. she had to go thru her wallet nak carik duit RM1-RM1.


all in all it was a fun day out. lupalah nak amik group foto this time. the previous was taken by Syu. anyway, kids had a blast main kat park & cousins.
bila balik rumah, they were still full of energy..whereas i dah memang out dah but still managed to iron clothes untuk pakai gi kenduri later. while waiting for the kids to watch tv and the rite time untuk p kenduri..guess what? i tertido. woke up n got ready..by the time siap, hujan pun turun. ngan kilat lagi. hmm..jawabnye tak pergilah kenduri. managing 3 energetic kids under the rain & lightning..i don't think so..sorilah Ina.