Wednesday, December 26, 2007

all i feel like doing today is to crawl under a blanket in a room with the drapes closed, the radio on playing all the 80s song that i once grew up listening to and cry my heart out. i do really need to cry. it's juz too much for me to handle. i've been handling them since their 1st day. even though he was around but still i was the one who shouldered almost everything. arrggh!! why did i take the turn? could life have been more simpler if i had not taken it? God knows!! i'm stressing out!!! i need a break!!

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

kids goofing around with the phone cam..

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

take a listen to this song. One dengar kat antara blog wajib tiap2 pagi. juz luv it.

sambil tu...our morning at TTwangsa

Monday, December 17, 2007

Kelab Kristal (ST) had their family day at Agrotek Resort, Ulu Langat last Sat 15.12.2007. i went a day earlier to set up things with a few other committee members. hmm..tempat dia oklah. ada tempat memancing, tempat lepaq2 kat tepi kolam, tempat piknik kat tepi sungai, ada water games, flying fox. everything was ok cuma food was lousy pastu tak cukup. dah abis bersukan mestilah masing2 laparkan? so food sepatutnya banyak lah..anyway we paid for those under 15. i had to ratah lauk je dlu pasal nasi dah abis. udang sederhana besar tu adalah dapat dalm 2 ekor sorang, sotong kementot besar ibu jari sekor sorang..punyalah catu makanan..dasat sungguh!! maybe nasib kita orang kot..boleh jadi orang lain punye event ok je kot. anyway, tahun nie One tak banyak main games pasal melibatkan air. i can't swim therefore i can't breathe in water. so tak payahlah nak nyusahkan badan n menyusahkan org lain nak bg CPR..hehehehe! kids had fun main water pistol and mandi sungai. farhan sorang je yg takut nak masuk dlm air. kalau kat swimming pool tak plak dia takut. Hmm..memilih jugak budak nie.
kids tengah menyiapkan diri nak main water pistol. masa nie water games belum start lagi. so masing-masing dah restless nak main air..i had them playing with the pistol first. mana nak tengok dia orang, mana nak join games. Hmm..

faris and farhana dah mulakan water pistol war. ada lagi 6-7 kids running around with the pistol. hahaha..the best part was, bukan setakat kanak2 riang je yg main..we the adults pun main gaks. tak kiralah ada boss ke takde boss masa tu. kasi main jugak.

firdaus in action. anak dara kat sebelah tu antara adults yang turut serta dalam war tu. masa nie masih x nampak lagi kebasahan memasing. faris & firdaus memasing took part in games. payah jugak nak memujuk si firdaus ni untuk main. kononnye malulah pasal dah besar. hmm..

kids main air kat sungai agrotek..farhan sorang je yg refuse untuk masuk..takut katanya.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

had a weird dream last nite. i dreamt that i had a partner, it was not of the opposite sex. it was with a gal i knew from my school days. hmmm. remembering the old days...back then during secondary, i attended an all girls school (my father nak jaga anak dara dia dari pengaruh boys yg pada dia are all bad). well, dalam all girls school mesti ada macam2 jenis orang kan? ada yang very the keperempuanan, ada yang very the kejantanan and ada jugak mixture of both. i think i was in the third group. the 2nd group mostly played hockey or are active in sports. masa junior level, ramailah senior-senior 'macho' yg diminati oleh we the juniors. ahaks!! including me. i was head over heels with A. apa saje occasion yg ada, be it birthday, valentine's day, open day.. i would b giving her gifts. i spent a lot on gifts & flowers. bila diingatkan balik, i finished my savings on her and when my father found out..boy! was he mad!! i went thru the 3rd degree with him. then came a time when i had a few admirers of my own. hahahaha!! that was a big laugh. i did not know that i could fall into that particular category. i would receive "love letters" ..hehehehe. i kind of liked the attention that i received from both my juniors and seniors. arrghh!! those were the days, when everything you did was fun and nothing else matter and being close to the same sex was not seen as something weird. then there was this gal or rather classmate that i had a crush on. she was juz sweet and friendly (loves to write puisi, sajak yg jiwang2) and we spent a lot of time together that i had to claim her as mine. i shamely poured out my feelings toward her. she must have had a hard time back then with me. hmm...sadly she turned me down pasal masa tu dia sendiri dah ada partner in crime dia. i'm still friends with her till this day tapi jarang sangat dapat jumpa. some of my friends yg hard core dlu dah kawin and have kids of their own...alhamdulillah. some are still searching...i hope they find what they are looking for. back to my dream...i mimpi girl yg sama i once badly wanted. hmm...apa maksudnye ek?
p/s: rasanye kalau my father had known my school life back then, mesti dia masukkan i kat co-ed school. hehehe.

Monday, December 10, 2007

celebrated my birthday on 8 & 9 December this year..twice u say? hmm..went over to my sis for makan-makan cum jumpa uncle from AS on Saturday , dapat this cake from my sis..Cu..that's me being the youngest aunt (and the hippiest!! hehehe!!)..on the actual date - 9/12, the "Wan"s had a picnic at Lake Garden. everybody in KL were there..well except for Cippa (who was sick, missed u) and Mak Ngah (dunno y). we woke the birds with our singing & i guess some of the joggers too had to seek for medical treatment due to our lovely voices. Dapat this cupcakes from syu & family...twas so sweet of them..we had nasi lemak with selection of ayam pedas or ayam rendang, fried meehoon, sandwiches, dates with hot drinks all around. kids had the most fun time i guess..coz from the minute we arrived, they were at the playground. the adults had time to ourselves to gossip & fool around. this is what i meant by fooling around<
part of the "Wan"s family having their breakfast..

Ati & Tok Ajah (me mum).after the makan-makan, we had our own activities...we had massage session, badminton session (not advisable after food intake but what the heck), gossiping, ada jugak yang layan lagu sorang-sorang kat tepi pokok..notice the comel gal behind the tree yg cuba nak amik video..hahahaha!!!

i have cute & adorable nieces & nephews...tapi yang paling outstanding for the day..

all in all..i had fun on both days. truly the best birthday eva...and being the "Wan"s that we are..we have started planning for our next makan-makan. till then...

Thursday, December 6, 2007

today's the 6th of December, the 1st time i met him 18 years ago. it is still fresh in my mind like it happened yesterday. juz last nite i dreamt about us. everything was as how i remembered it used to be. the laughter, the soft touch, the smile...everything was unbelievably real.
Why do we hold on to that memory when it really hurts each time we are reminded about it?

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

last Monday had the chance to meet up with an old schoolmate. even though she lives in KL tapi mcm dok beribu batu, sbb susah sangat nak jumpa. bukannye x leh make time tapi masing2 ada commitment yg susah nak lepas. anyway met up kat KLCC for lunch. we had a blast walaupun niat di hati nak mencuci mata ngan cute guys tak kesampaian even though it was lunch hour. hmm..where did the cute guys menghilang? she gave me a pre-birthday gift..yg made my kids wonder..sapalah yg bagi hadiah kat mama? i like to keep them in the dark...hehehehehe. thanx gal for the lunch & wonderful time. it was worth the wait.