Thursday, March 29, 2007

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Takkan pernah habis air mataku
Bila ku ingat tentang dirimu
Mungkin hanya kau yang tahu
Mengapa sampai saat ini ku masih sendiri
Adakah disana kau rindu padaku
Meski kita kini ada di dunia berbeda
Bila masih mungkin waktu berputar
Kan kutunggu dirimu …
Biarlah ku simpan sampai nanti aku kan ada di sana
Tenanglah diriku dalam kedamaian
Ingatlah cintaku kau tak terlihat lagi
Namun cintamu abadi …




Monday, March 19, 2007

Monday, March 12, 2007

Baru je experience something over the weekend yang membuatkan One teringat pada kisah di zaman kanak-kanak.

Judin. Nama budak laki yang berkawan rapat ngan One masa duduk kat Bukit Persekutuan (Federal Hill). Nama parents dia Pak Rejab & Mak Zaiton. Very nice couple. Kalau tak salah One, they had 3 boys n 1 girl. Judin anak ke 3 and the youngest was called Anna. I remembered playing with Judin a lot. Naper bukan ngan Anna? Hmm can’t remember the reason why. Anyway, the best memory that I had masa playing with Judin was going down the hill kat umah dia ngan tikar. Aksi macam superman!! I’ll upload the pic later.


The weekend boy had such a sweet character..

Thursday, March 8, 2007

Hari nie 9 March 2007. Kalau arwah pak masih ada, dia dah berumur 81 tahun pada hari ini. Arwah pak meninggal dunia pada usia 72 tahun di rumah Alor Setar, meninggalkan mak dan kami 9 adik beradik. One ada di sisi pak masa dia menghembuskan nafas terakhirnya pada subuh 27 Mei 1998.

Sesudah One mendirikan rumahtangga, pak amik keputusan untuk pulang menetap di Alor Setar setelah lama hidup merantau di Kuala Lumpur. Pak baru balik sebulan sebelum tarikh dia pergi meninggalkan kami.

Seminggu sebelum kejadian tu, One beria-ia ingin balik ke Alor Setar. Mie agak keberatan untuk lepaskan One balik bersama Firdaus. Tapi oleh kerana kedegilan One, akhirnya Mie akur jua. Pulanglah One menaiki keretapi 2 anak beranak. Kami menaiki keretapi malam dan sampai pada keesokan paginya.

Sepanjang One berada di sana, One tidur sebilik ngan arwah pak dan mak. Walaupun terdapat lagi 2 bilik kosong, One tetap jugak nak tidor sebilik ngan mereka. Kemana jua yang pak ingin pergi, Onelah yang akan memandu dia. One ingat lagi sepanjang minggu yang One berada di sana, banyak tempat yang diziarahi dan banyak juga urusan yang dikendalikan oleh arwah pak. It was the best week spent with him.

One nie dulu masa remajanya memanglah seorang anak yang susah untuk mendengar kata orang tua. I was really stubborn, rebellious and wanted everything my way. There were a lot of times that I made my parents cried. I never figured out why I did those things, those stupid things. Begitu teruja dengan kehidupan remaja masa itu and was in my own world. Hmm..think gonna blame it all on peer pressure…hehehe!!

Anyway, when I was being the good daughter, whenever I walked with pak, I’ll always hold his left arm. I’ll snuggle up to him and smell him. That was the best aroma then, even Mie pun tak leh compete with pak. People will always pandang me atas bawah, whenever I do that pak. Mesti they all heran, sapalah pompuan nie..anak or gf? Hahahahaha!!

Memories of him are still fresh in my mind. Till today, I still miss him. Moga dosanya diampunkan dan rohnya ditempatkan bersama mereka yang dikasihiNya. Amin.

Al-Fatihah.

paper cutting of his death & pic of me n him at our old house in Federal Hill.




Wednesday, March 7, 2007

Song Title: Jing Jing De Silently Artist: Harlem Yu

what’s hidden in the air? there’s a hint of romantic feeling i’m looking at you secretly you’re also secretly looking at me seems like the world’s getting something more it doesn’t feel the same anymore standing by your side all become so much bigger i’m still waiting for you to love me silently so long as you’re by my side silently is good enough you’re also waiting for my silent tenderness holding hands like this silently gazing at the sky what’s hidden inside this heart? you are only trying to let me understand it turns out that my dream is also yours what’s written on this piece of paper? how i wish i could hear you say let every word, every sentence is filled with our smiles i’m still waiting for you to love me silently so long as you’re by my side silently is good enough you’re also waiting for my silent tenderness holding hands like this silently gazing at the sky forever we shall remember of the promise we made to each other on that day that sudden, bright spark belongs to us i’m still waiting for you to love me silently so long as you’re by my side silently is good enough you’re also waiting for my silent tenderness holding hands like this silently gazing at the sky holding hands silently is the simplest dream

Another MV from Silence that i'm currently listening & watchin to..






Tuesday, March 6, 2007

i've been questioned by someone close to me, why aren't i updating my blog? well, mainly becoz i've been bz updating my multiply. all my thoughts and feelings for the day n week (non-related to Mie) are posted there. my guess is, when i 1st started this blog, it was with the intention of jotting down thoughts and remembrance of the person whom i loved and how the people around me affects my emotions when it is Mie-related.

i've had this nawaitu of updating my blog with something else that has been happening in my life. Insya Allah, i'll slowly change the contents. after all i am trying to move on. so gal, i'll try my best to luahkan ketidakpuasan saya terhadap orang-orang tertentu, sekali-sekala ngumpat orang and tulis something non-related to him.

i've always been emo. so when i'm in the mood, One suka layan cite-cite yang asyuk-masyuk nie. for instance, i've juz finished watching a Taiwanese series - Silence. walaupun cite tu dah dimainkan kat 8tv, tapi One baru berkesempatan nonton. bila kata baru berkesempatan, i meant, spent my whole weekend watching the series. lagi2 bila the kids xde kat rumah. i thought i was going to enjoy the peace n quiet, rupa2nya tak, i actually missed them. so bila dah emo tu, mulalah timbul mood nak layan cite nie.

i enjoyed the story and that has put me in the mood of listening to the OSTs and searching for any info related to Silence. I've dled 2 clips of my fav songs. kat cnie, One letak MV - sang by Vic.

kalau ikutkan lyrics yg translated by lainemma, it goes something like this..

i'm always walking alone, my heart is full of emptiness, i’ve used so many excuses to hide my loneliness, but i still can’t regain my freedom, love has passed by me before, fondness remains in my memory, i’m in a habit of searching for you, i’m contended to be just with you, it turns out that we always remain in the most beautiful moment, your most familiar gentleness has never left me, what I see with my eyes are all your smiles, i finally realise, you must be my destiny, this time, i will never let you go, love has passed by me before, fondness remains in my memory, i’m in a habit of searching for you, i’m contended to be just with you, it turns out that we always remain in the most beautiful moment, your most familiar gentleness has never left me, what i see with my eyes are all your smiles, i finally realise, you must be my destiny, this time i will never let you go, my feelings for you has never changed, time has stopped, for you and me, your familiar gentleness, has never left me, deep in your heart you still possess me and you’re still waiting for me, no words can ever express our promise, i’ll not let you go, i will with all my heart…in loving you..