Tuesday, May 24, 2005

he kept them

Juz d other day, i was cleaning my house (finally)..came across a box or shld i say a big brown envelope..went thru them..discovered letters n cards yg pernah bg 2 him. Ya Allah..tabahkanlah hati ku.

He actually kept all the letters n cards yg i bg dia since i 1st started going out with him. Letters masa tgh study n dia blk kg..masa myself kat kuantan..dia kat kl. I realized..how mushy i was back then..i used to express my love, my deepest love 4 him n i was scared of losing him. Reading them really broke my heart. Lepas dah kawin..i nvr expressed that much of love 2 him..i guessed he knew. But the thought of losing him masa tu..masa dok berkawan..really heartbreaking..guess how i felt biler dah kawin n ada kids with him. As if half of my life was gone.

Ppl can say..sabar..tabahkan hati..huh!! easier said than done.

Pertemuan yang tidak diduga ini bisa mengikut naluri kita..lalu mata pun bertemu..dan hatiku dan hatimu saling menyapa..esoknya kita bersua lagi, mataku menyapa matamu, sinaran matamu kufahami rupanya kita tidak saling bertepuk sebelah tangan..lalu, tangan pun berganding gelak pun seiring kini kita menjadi kawan, sahabat dan kekasih..